Monday, June 30, 2008

My Fisrt Bra Fitting.





Throughout my childhood and adolescence I felt that I was always in the wrong body. I used to wear a training bra, as it was the only thing I was able to get my hand on and I would feel sad that, that I had nothing to fill them out.

Then one day I was strolling in my cousin’s room and found a new type of Bra a padded one. I immediately put it on and found that it gave an impression that I had a pair of nice rounded breast, but it was very loose for me.

When I was 18 years old, I built my courage to go to a shopping centre to get a bra fitting. The thought of having a stranger measure my bust and wonder why in the world would a man buy a bra made me cringe. The shop assistant (an elderly lady) was very surprised and asked me why would I want to buy a bra. I said that it was needed for s school play. Till today I knew that she was very confident that I was lying but never said anything. She then took me to the changing rooms at the back of the store. She measured over my t-shirt, under and over (not that there actually was an over) and as expected I was given a little 34 AA sized bra to try on.

I was actually hoping to get a bigger one and told her that I need one with cups so that it gives an impression that I had breast. She then made me try a 34 B size bra to try on. I was a little sad because I did not have enough flesh on my chest to fill them up but mostly I was excited that I had my first fitted bra. This was so as all my bra’s before this was nicked from my cousins and my neighbours who dared to hang them outside and temp me. The Shop Assistant brought a few designs for me to try on and had me buy a pretty floral decoration printed bra. She then asked me if I wanted a sexier look and told me that it will look nice. I immediately bought a few pairs. As I was about to make payments she look at me and suggested to me in a very cynical manner that I but a few panties too. I took the heed, as she now knows that there was no school play. I also purchased some panties and lest the store very pleased indeed that I had purchases my first bra.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Types of bras


When bras were first developed in the 1920s, they were simply undergarments that provided strong support for women's breasts, preventing problems like sagging breasts and backaches. Today, designers and manufacturers worldwide have added to the value of a bra by offering women close to 20 different styles to fit their needs:

1. Training bra. This type of bra is designed for preteen or teenage girls who are in the early stages of breast development. It is smaller than standard bra sizes, and its cups come without underwire support. Aside from providing some measure of breast support, it helps young girls to become accustomed to wearing a bra.

(Been there – the most boring type of bra)

2. Full cup bra. This bra provides full support, as it comes with underwired cups and covers most of the breasts. It is recommended for all women, and especially for those with heavier breasts.

(not my favorite, but back when I was in secondary school and was using water ballons as breast- it was my type of bra)

3. Demi cup bra. A demi cup bra covers only half the breasts, with its cups coming up above the nipples. This bra is suitable to wear with clothes that have plunging necklines. It is supportive, yet provides maximum exposure of the breasts.

(I Love this bra, even wear it today-I am a little fat so this bra actually gives me a cleavage)

4. Padded bra. This bra comes with padding inside the cup linings, adding volume to smaller breasts. Padded bras are popular with teenage girls, who may otherwise stuff their training bras with tissues to make their breasts look fuller.

( I call the the balcony bra because there is a lot of empty waste space---- I wish I could fill the up with real ones….maybe one day soon)

5. Underwired bra. Bras can come with or without underwire in their cups. An underwired bra provides strong support to the breasts and also maintains the shape of the bra. Some women claim that underwired bras lift their breasts, while others find these bras uncomfortable or painful.

( I like them, in fact most of my collection are of this type---but my problem is that the wire penetrates the edges after some time)

6. Strapless bra. Strapless bras come with no straps or straps that can be removed. This style is very useful for clothes that bare shoulders, such as tube dresses and halter tops.

(I remember wearing this to the mini mart near my house once---nobody noticed as the sweat shirt was tight, but boy did I enjoy myself that day)

7. Convertible bra. This bra comes with detachable straps that can be arranged according to one's needs. It is usually worn with clothes that reveal the back and shoulders, such as backless dresses with halter top necklines.

(used to have it but honestly I did not like the feel)

8. T-shirt bra. T-shirt bras are made without a raised seam in order to appear invisible when worn under a body-fitting t-shirt.

( I have a few of this but if you have it flaunt it--- a little of bra straps and molded cups always gives everybody a turn on)

9. Minimizer bra. This bra is commonly sought after by large-breasted women who wish to reduce the appearance of their breasts by a cup size or two.

(the man/lady who invented this must be shoot)

10. Maximizer/Push up bra. These bras lift the breasts and emphasize cleavage through their unique structure and extra padding. The padding may come in various forms, such as water sacks or silicone inserts. The goal is to give a fuller, more natural look to breasts of all sizes.

(I am still looking for one that fits properly- have one but its used and worn-out. Got it from a Nyah at chow-kit a few years ago. It cost me RM 50.00-she knew I was desperate I guess)

11. Sports bra. Sports bras are made for active women who engage in rigorous physical exercise. They are designed to be comfortable and supportive by holding the breasts in place during motion, therefore reducing damage to soft tissues of the chest. These bras are usually made of stretchable material to provide a snug fit.

(Had one before but threw it away, more like wearing a tight t-shirt—boaring)

12. Built-in bra. A built-in bra is one that comes with the clothing, eliminating the need for a separate bra. This style can be found attached to the insides of swimsuits and tube tops. Some built-in bras are just horizontal, elastic fabric, but others have padding and underwired cups as well.

(will never get one—just love the feeling of a bra on me that’s all)

13. Shelf bra. This bra covers only the lower part of the breasts, leaving the nipples and upper part of the breasts exposed. It is not supportive and is worn in sexual situations.

(don’t have enough of breast to wear it----GOD if only it was normal for men to enlarge their breast)

14. Peephole bra. A peephole bra features holes around the nipples. Its loose coverage of the entire breasts is insufficient to provide significant support. This type of bra is also worn in sexual situations.

(don’t have it but am willing to put it on my ‘wish-list’ anytakers?)

15. Maternity bra. Women's breasts become more sensitive, heavier and larger throughout pregnancy. Maternity bras are adjustable and can expand to take these changes into account.

(I had one before-nice comfortable material)

16. Nursing bra. These bras are worn to ease the breastfeeding process. They are made with flaps that can be unclasped or pushed to the side, keeping the breasts supported during breastfeeding.

(I had one before-nice comfortable material and just pop the top and wolla)

17. Mastectomy bra. A mastectomy bra is intended for women who have undergone the removal of one or both breasts due to cancer treatments. Here, the cups are made with pockets to keep breast prostheses in place and simulate the existence of breasts.

(to expensive for me—saving up for a falsie soon will let you all know)

Choosing a suitable bra is indeed a challenge these days. One bra does not fit all, and hence, it is best to invest in a good set of bras that cover one's usual range of activities. For instance, a regular jogger should purchase a good sports bra, while a more social woman should spend on convertible bras that fit her many formal evening outfits.ANYWAYS THE PICTURE ON TOP WAS OBTAINED BY GOOGLING NEW DESIGN FOR BRAS-DONT KNOW IF ITS NEW BUT LUV THE DESIGN

Sunday, June 22, 2008

The beginning


It all started when I was in 12 years old. I've resorted to carrying my female clothes in my backpack, since my mom had gotten into the habit of ransacking my room in search of my clothes.

So anyway, I'm talking to a friend about my past weekend visiting my cousin in Perak when I look toward my backpack and to my horror, see one of my classmates, Rusdi, going through my "things." He looks up and into my eyes with a look of horror. I immediately jet towards him and try my best to silence him with whatever excuse I can muster at the last second. I'm 13 at the time so the best thing I could come up with then was that they were my cousin's clothes and that she must have left them in there accidentally. I seem to silence him with my endless stream of BS, but I know I'm screwed. The best I can do is damage control.

So the 2nd period class bell rings and I make a bee-line to the nearest restroom to destroy the evidence, but it is obvious that some of the things can't be flushed or disposed of discretely as there is a crowd of boys there with me. So I flush what I can and try to make it to the end of the day.

Third period class goes by without incident. I feel like I could make it to the end of the day. Just maybe.

So, I get to fourth period. The last class of the day, also my most hated subject: math. One of the other people there, Vellu, is a friend of the guy that went through my backpack earlier. Everything seems to be going well, but he keeps looking up at me every once in a while and then looks away.

Five minutes till the final bell rings and school is over. The class has begun to wind down and we're all getting ready to leave. Vellu walks over with his friend Palani. He tries to grab my backpack but I manage to snatch it away. I try to get away but he does something that will completely destroy my life for the next few years: he tells the teacher that I have women's clothing in my backpack.

I am officially screwed.

The bells rings and fortunately most of the other people in the class haven't heard the commotion because they were all talking loudly as they always do right before class lets out. The teacher, Mrs. Noraini, commands me to stay after class and orders me to empty out my backpack. I had gotten rid of almost everything, but there were one or two things left ( a dress and a blue bra). I could feel my heart struggling to pound its way out of my chest. I began to slowly take one book at a time out of the pack, stalling for time. As I did this, I positioned the last book on top of the remaining clothes. When I got to the last book I just said "That's it, there's nothing else other than that." She looks at me with a look of disgust, pauses, and then tells me to leave.

Needless to say, I RAN like I've never run before to my waiting car. I didn't sleep at all that night. Thoughts of all my classmates knowing my secret raced through my mind.

The next morning I waited for what I assumed would be something akin to a public lynching.

First period came. Nothing. Was it possible that this had all blown over already?

Nope. Come second period I get called into the vice principal's office. Mrs. Noraini had taken it upon herself to inform the Vice Principal of the previous day's incident. I am once again subjected to a search of my belongings by a security guard and then given a speech about how he should call my parents to inform them about my deviant behavior. I try the same story I had told Rusdi the previous day, but again it convinced no one.

He didn't end up calling my parents in front of me.

I still don't know who knows, because I know Risdi and Palani told people. I remember the next year the ladyboys or nyahs were close to me in many ways and invited me to their house many a times. They tried to ask me indirectly if I was like them but the actual question never came out.

I tried to play a macho role by always striping to my underpants to show that I am not wearing any panties (but I missed them a lot) when we were supposed to go for our exercises.

Today as I look back at that day, I often think I should have just continued wearing panties and bras and I will today be in clothes I am really comfortable in.

i am new.

Hi there,

I am new at this so please bear with me. will start bloging soon.